I just paid $648.00 to the state bar.
My bar review course will cost me $3,000.
By the end of next year I will be more than $100,000 in debt.
A debt that will take approximately 30 years to pay off.
I don’t have a job yet.
And what I want to do don’t pay much.

I just had the daunting realization that I will never be rich on my own. I don’t know how I’m going to pay off my loans and feed myself, let alone a family. I just realized that the only way I can have enough money to support me, my family, and my dream of taking care of my parents will come only if the person I will marry will supplement my income.

He will most likely be making three times more than me.
He will in fact, be supporting me.

I should be happy.
BUT
I am instead disturbed on a very deep level.
The Gloria Steinem in me just turned over and died.