I miss having a strong, wise, spiritual leader that I can just call when I'm having a meltdown. They are predicting rain on my wedding day. All I can think about is, "Please God let it be warm and sunny!" When what I really want to think about is, "God, thank you for this blessing, because no matter what happens I will be married! Rain or sunshine!"

See, that's the bigger picture. I know it, but I don't feel it. Please God, help me not to just pray for sunshine.